MY ONLY WISH!!

Here I was, as always coping with my decisions, spending quality time with my family and more important living the world cup.

Curously in the middle of the conversation became what I was afraid to be asked, I know I've tried so hard to avoid certain subjects, but here I was in the middle of the day trying for the last time to avoid what has been one of my biggest secrets I do have.

I know that people in a recent event saw in my eyes that I've met which for me is my Prince Charming, a Prince that I think I've scared, because honestly I don't know how to be normal, which in my words are I just don't know how to get out in hours I'm not used too, and don't know too how to go to discos, because I am not used to be like that, unfortunately I've thought he was not able to cope with that, which gave a huge dissappointment, because finally I found the man of my dreams, attractive, funny, smart, with a personality I love, and still I can continue with a list of attributes that he has.

Honestly I have been avoiding to tell what I really want, but honestly I don't want my family to interfere, because I really believe that when someone of the family do something about a matter of the heart, usually screw things up.

Today my sister asked me if there was someone that I had some interest in, I know I need to move on and I'ts been long ago since I had a boyfriend to rely on and kiss and spend time with. I know what they think , and honestly I have felt like that too, but I really want him, I remember when I found out he was single My heart pound of joy and I know he is what I've been dreaming all my life, but as I told my sister I am interested in only one person, but unfortunately, he is not interested in me anymore, and that's true, as I told one of my best friends about two days ago, He is what I would call THE PERFECT MAN, the unreachable, the one you want to send messages to and you know lots of women are behind him, and the chances to get a shot, when you are not the normal kind of girl, those chances are almost lost, he is what I would ask my Genie to help me conquer, but what the heck, I do want him to gain my heart as it is, but what are the shot of making him the only man in my life, and the only one I could rely on, that shot I've lost, for reasons I know are valid.