vacations

I wish so hard, to end this break with something extraordinary like most of my past vacations, but even though I had fullfilled my desire to be back, to feel amazing with myself, not needing to be beside anyone else to feel as happy as I used to feel, to be so comfortable with myself, I can tell you all, that this vacations has been a little bit borring to me, even though I did learn to do different stuff, I can tell that for the first time in two years, I don't have a love story I can say OMG.

Indeed I have lots of stuff that happened during this time, maybe as this song says I need a perfect lie, but who really knows me, can tell I am the worst liar in the world, good thing or not, I don't like lies at all.

Two years ago, I had my first boyfriend, which mmmmm was not the best choice ever made, but I had the best vacations that I've had, last year, something huge happened in my life, I was soooo in love, this year, yes, I watch every world cup soccer play, but things happened I had awesome people nearby me, I had a shot to attract an awesome person, but maybe we're not meant to be together or maybe he is not interested.

well, It doesn't matter, when someone asks me what I did this vacations, I know I will tell, I've rested a lot, I learnt things I never thought I was capable of learning, I was happy, I got rid of my ghosts, those ghosts that didn't let me get over, and finally I am happy and siingle.

I know by heart, that I am a person who is in love with the idea of love, I've had not too much esperience in the love field, and still wants to find the man for me, but maybe he has not come yet, because I needed to get over with some stuff, I know it's hard when you give your whole hart and that's for real, but maybe someday the right man will come, the one that will be happy to be only with me, that can have dreams for the future, a future that we can conquer together, and who will be happy to receive my whole heart in return of his.

meanwhile, I know I have to focus on my studies, but I know for sure, It doesn't matter if you are a straight A student, which I'm not, but every race won feels better if you have someone to celebrate with.